everybody else's girl (metallicames) wrote,
everybody else's girl

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dying on time

uuugh im sooo sick im dying. life sucks.

sometimes i forget how passionately i defend rape victims, including myself. i wish i was beautiful and irish. ive never been diagnosed.. other than by aaron. he tells me im depressed, so i am depressed. he tells me im borderline, ... i dont know anything about borderline personality disorder.. and its not like i have anybody to diagnose me properly. nobody does any tests.. they just treat me for what i tell them i have. im all confused. i wish i could eat. i wish that food would go through my body properly.

Thus, borderline patients show a wide range of impulsive behaviors, particularly those that are self destructive. They are highly unstable emotionally, and develop wide mood swings in response to stressful events. Finally, BPD may be complicated by brief psychotic episodes.

Most often, borderline patients present to psychiatrists with repetitive suicidal attempts. We often see these patients in the emergency room, coming in with an overdose or a slashed wrist following a disappointment or a quarrel.

Interpersonal relationships in BPD are particularly unstable. Typically, borderline patients have serious problems with boundaries. They become quickly involved with people, and quickly disappointed with them. They make great demands on other people, and easily become frightened of being abandoned by them. Their emotional life is a kind of rollercoaster.

1 Frantic efforts to avoid real or imagined abandonment.
2 A pattern of unstable and intense personal relationships.
3 Identity disturbance
4 Impulsivity in at least two areas that are potentially self damaging
5 Recurrent suicidal behaviour, gestures, threats or self-mutilating behaviour.
6 Affective instability due to a marked reactivity of mood.
7 Chronic feelings of emptiness.
8 Inappropriate, intense anger.
9 Transient, stress related paranoid ideation or severe dissociative symptoms.

blah thats EXACTLY me... could i BE more borderline? bleh how crappy. at least now i know exactly what i am. finally, a disorder that fits me perfectly. borderline sounds scary.... makes me think that the person is gonna frek out and kill me... thats kinda what it is i suppose. and yeah, i could easily do that. dont fuck with a brotha
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